Soon and very soon

So I am going to graduate with my One Year Practical Church Ministries Degree this May. I really don't have to walk in the ceremony but this being my 4th year in college I thought I would commemorate it by graduatin from BBC. Oh,,Debbie Rocks my socks off.
I am ecstatic, about going out to California this Summer. Three weeks of school left....annnnd... stress beginsss......NOW! I have to start studying for my algebra final, considering that it is 25% of my grade. It's always at this point in the semester when I wish I could just drop everything I am doing and only study for my finals. Unfortunately I still have to be responsible and work, and stick to my commitments. uuucck adulthood.
Soo I went and saw Michael W. Smith last week, So maybe I cried I don't know. For real it was a good show I volunteered to work at the merchandise booth, selling T's and paraphinalia, So they let me in for free. Watermark, and Selah, were the opening groups.
It's so amazing how God knows exactly what I need to hear, and he tells me in just the right way. It's crazy but I keep coming into situations and conversations, that are all telling me to let go of my plans for myself, and just let God do it. Humbling as they all are, I find myself always needing someone else's help. In itself doesn't seem odd, but it has been happening alot, It's making me realize how independant I "think" I am, and coming to reality where I can do nothing on my own, God's little reminders that I am not running my life. Sometimes it doesn't matter how good my intentions are, some things just don't go the way I plan them, and being able to roll with it is a challenge. Swallowing my pride and accepting help is the only way to do it sometimes. There have several occasions where I come to a point where I can decide to keep going even when it looks hopeless or just give up and say there is no point in wasting my time. For example walking into class and feeling like an idiot because not only is my grade on the rocks but I failed to even realize that I have a 4 page report due and I haven't even thought about what the topic of the research paper would be. I could a. drop the class I don't really need it or b. go apologize to the professor and ask for an extension , which in nature I would choose a. It's the easiest to slip out and hope nobody even noticed my miserable attempt. Luckily I chose b. and added it to my list of things that were due, stayed up extremely late the next few days and it turned out alright I got an A on the paper and he even docked me for it being late. So it was a little lesson I learned,... that, and Math in general, as long as there is math in the world I will continue to be humbled.